Some parts of profound autism parenting happen behind closed doors and in parking lots, far from what most people ever see. This is a raw look at the heartbreak, helplessness, and fierce love that can exist all at once when your child is hurting and you are trying to hold it together.

As my son gets closer to turning five, I find myself thinking more and more about what his future may look like. I know he is still young and so much can change, but the fear of the unknown is real. This is the part of profound autism parenting that is hardest for me to say out loud.